Monday, February 7, 2011

It's not working out well

My cockamamie plan, that is.  What the heck did I expect?  Oh, wait a second...for it to work.  At least kinda.  So right now, it's 4:30, and I'm hungry, and I have roughly 500 calories left for the day.  So, as I see it, my choices are:

1)  Screw it.
2)  Eat a lot of carrots, drink a lot of water, and try like hell to stay under budget.
3)  Go moderate, go a little over budget, and try to burn it off tonight.

Go Packers!

Yay!  So, last night was the superbowl.  And I was doing GREAT...until the queso came out.  Dangit, I'm a sucker for some Velveeta and rotel.  And I didn't go back for triple helpings (like normal), but that one serving did put me over calories for yesterday.  And so what do I do?  Go home and burn those few excess calories off, right?  I had a piece of pizza.  Dangit.

So herein lies my pattern...I stay under calories, am doing just fine, until usually AFTER dinner. And I wanna eat something else.  Not usually cuz I'm hungry...just cuz it happens to be one of my most favorite foods in the world, or cuz dangit, that smells good!  And then .  And low and behold, that's exactly what the scale showed today....2 pound gain.  Boom.

So today I'm trying one of those cockamamie plans I had.  I'll let you know how it turns out tonight.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

And now its Saturday

I haven't posted since Tuesday.  Whoops.  Wednesday I stayed just under calories.  Thursday, I did not.  Like, by a lot.  It was baaaad.  Went to OTB with the ladies, then came home and had donuts and milk, and then the hubby wanted Taco Bueno (after we went driving in the snow!!).  That's something I HAVE to work on...not eating when he does, and not feeling resentful when he eats around me.  Sux.  So much of my eating is emotional.  They say loosing weight is just math...3500 calories less or burned is 1 pound lost.  Not so simple for me.

On the good side, I stayed under on Friday, a true snow day, and again today.  But I did so by sleeping late and not doing much all day.  I've had some pretty cockamamie ideas the last couple of days (Ummm...when's the last time I had a happy pill?  Need to quit screwing around and get back on a schedule with those so I can remember if I've had them, and keep up with them!).  One obviously being, if I sleep a whole lot, I won't eat a lot of calories, right?  I know...doesn't work that way.  The other being, pick one food, and eat all of your calories that day in that food.  My idea is that after 3 or 4 servings of one thing (even ice cream), I'm going to be sick of it and stop eating.  But then won't that just throw me off into eating whatever I want even worse?  And what do I do...plan what's for dinner, but make it in advance and eat it all day preceding dinner?   WTF, right?  But, at least (I say in my head), if you get sick and tired of carrots on Monday, that's your calories in apples or ice cream or something else Tuesday.

One day (I can't remember which) where all my meals were great, very reasonable in calories, and so I had like 1100 calories to "play" with...snack on.  And I still came in barely on target.  I think that's it...I'm a total snacker.  I need to find a way to use that to my advantage.

And now, tomorrow is the Super Bowl.  Hmph.  We'll have to see how that goes.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Snow day....

...minus any snow.  Seriously, we could have gone in today.  What about tomorrow, when the wind chill is gonna be below zero?  All I know is, I better have some clean sweats.

But enough about me.  On!  I took a long, lovely "nap" this morning.  I know conventional wisdom says to get up, get productive, and then take a nap in the afternoon.  I'm just not conventional :)

This afternoon, I ate lunch (ahem...ok, 4 mini donuts and a glass of milk.  But I stopped at 4!  Old me would have eaten the WHOLE BAG!!), cleaned out my baking dishes cabinet, started dinner, and cleaned out the fridge.  And despite my Wii absolutely refusing to cooperate, managed to do 15 minutes of Just Dance 2.  I found some videos of the dance moves, and followed along...with the controller in my hand :)

So those are my victories for the day...stopped at 4 donuts (1 serving!), did a little moving (no matter what!) and made a healthy turkey chili for dinner (still working on the calorie count...but still!)

Onward and upward!

*Edited to add--after dinner, I ate another 8 donuts...2 more servings.  Miraculously, I still came in under my calorie budget for the day by 20 cals, according to my DailyPlate.  But still...wanted to be honest, at least with myself!

Monday, January 31, 2011

Today's Victories

Other than a weight loss since Friday?  Glad you asked.
  1.  Stayed under my calorie budget for today
  2.  Drank 8 glasses of water or hot tea today (ok, finishing the last one now!)
  3.  Had a few "3 minute" moments...
  •             made dinner instead of caving and going out
  •             made some tea after school instead of chowing down on chips or cookies;
  •             took the dog out for a short walk.
Did I hope for more? Yep.  Is it better than nothing?  A step ( or 3) in the right direction?  Yep.   So a little more.

Consider this my first post.

The Crazy Teacher never really was, and now it is no more.  I'm tempted to delete the posts, but I think they'll stay up for now.

Welcome to the first post of "Three Minutes."

This is the first post of my weight loss journey, to share with friends and family, to keep myself accountable, to keep going when I don't want to any more.

I am almost exactly two weeks away from my 30th birthday.  This morning, I weighed in at 316.7 pounds.  Sounds like a lot?  Consider that I'm 5'4".  Yeah, that makes it worse.  Second consideration?  Friday I was at 318.2.  So at least we're starting off in the right direction.

I am calling this blog "Three Minutes at a Time" because I am fat the reason I think a lot of people are...laziness.  I want my life to change, but I don't want to do the work to change it.  I hate exercising, plus spending an extra hour driving, changing, showering in addition to a 30 or 60 minute workout.  But I can committ three minutes at a time to myself.  Originally, that meant exercising three minutes at a time, how ever many times a day I could get in.  That's one song, one burst of energy, one whatever.  So no, not three minutes a day...lots of three minutes, as many as I can wrangle.

And yes, I know the need to get your heart rate up at least X number of minutes a day, blah blah blah.  But this is more than I was doing.  And I know that 3 minutes of exercise will suddenly not be as hard, and then turn into 5 minutes, and so on and so forth.  I'm not looking for "perfect."  I'm looking for "better than nothing at all."

Secondly, there are a lot of other ways to take care of yourself three minutes at a time.  Chop an extra veggie, and add it to something.  Make a cup of hot tea instead of buying a soda.  Wash your measuring cups and spoons so you can measure and track your meals.  Sit down and log your meals instead of checking FB for the 40th time.

So, join me for the ride.